When I look back to March of last year, I quite honestly cringe a little bit. It was the definite low of twenty-sixteen and a month I would prefer to never have to experience again. For lack of a better word, it felt like rock bottom. Nursing school was intense and anxiety provoking, and I found myself seriously questioning my career choice. To make matters worse, I found myself fully submerged in the hell that is heartbreak. I was consumed by all the emotions that accompany not only a broken heart, but also the fear and confusion that result when you feel like you just don't know what you are doing with your life. No fun. Thank you to the period of time known as your early twenties.
As we quickly approach April, almost 365 days past the uncertainty and heartbreak that was March of twenty-sixteen, I can look back on the past year and see how far that confused and heartbroken girl has come. I wish that I could have given my March twenty-sixteen self a little sneak peak at what was to come a short year later. I would have told that girl that she will be in love with her job and so very over-the-moon happy. That after only one week, she feels like she found her niche in the nursing world, and that she couldn't imagine doing anything else. I would go on to tell her that it will be a long twelve months, but she will eventually find a way to be at peace with the fact that we don't always end up with those great loves of our lives. She would have been in disbelief when I told her she will be so very happy and content with the freedom that not being in a relationship provides. I would have told her to trust the universe and have a little faith that it would all work out exactly as it is suppose to.
Here we are three weeks later, and the month that started out on such a high note, has taken a bit of a turn. Life is not bad by any means. Life is still really good and I have so much to be thankful for. However, life is unpredictable, challenging, and we are often faced with difficult decisions and situations. If someone told me two weeks ago, what life would throw at me two weeks later, I would have laughed in their face, and yet, here I am at a cross-roads with no other choice but to make those difficult decisions. Such is life.
xo. G
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