Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Trusting the Universe


Three weeks ago when I planned out my content for the month of March, I decided that this post would be a little update into what I’ve been up to lately and what’s new in my life. I felt it was the perfect post as the past year has been a wild ride - at times uncertain and challenging but also filled with just as much excitement, adventure, and new beginnings. Since the start of the new year, I have felt as though everything was finally coming together and falling into place just as I always hoped it would. March in particular has only solidified those feelings, and I don’t think I can pick out another month in the past year that has left me feeling so happy. A happiness that is rooted in being so very content in where my life is right now, where I am right now, and where both me and my life are headed. Three weeks ago a life update sounded like the perfect post, and three weeks ago, that post would have gone a little like this..

When I look back to March of last year, I quite honestly cringe a little bit. It was the definite low of twenty-sixteen and a month I would prefer to never have to experience again. For lack of a better word, it felt like rock bottom. Nursing school was intense and anxiety provoking, and I found myself seriously questioning my career choice. To make matters worse, I found myself fully submerged in the hell that is heartbreak. I was consumed by all the emotions that accompany not only a broken heart, but also the fear and confusion that result when you feel like you just don't know what you are doing with your life. No fun. Thank you to the period of time known as your early twenties. 

As we quickly approach April, almost 365 days past the uncertainty and heartbreak that was March of twenty-sixteen, I can look back  on the past year and see how far that confused and heartbroken girl has come. I wish that I could have given my March twenty-sixteen self a little sneak peak at what was to come a short year later. I would have told that girl that she will be in love with her job and so very over-the-moon happy. That after only one week, she feels like she found her niche in the nursing world, and that she couldn't imagine doing anything else. I would go on to tell her that it will be a long twelve months, but she will eventually find a way to be at peace with the fact that we don't always end up with those great loves of our lives. She would have been in disbelief when I told her she will be so very happy and content with the freedom that not being in a relationship provides. I would have told her to trust the universe and have a little faith that it would all work out exactly as it is suppose to.   

Here we are three weeks later, and the month that started out on such a high note, has taken a bit of a turn. Life is not bad by any means. Life is still really good and I have so much to be thankful for. However, life is unpredictable, challenging, and we are often faced with difficult decisions and situations. If someone told me two weeks ago, what life would throw at me two weeks later, I would have laughed in their face, and yet, here I am at a cross-roads with no other choice but to make those difficult decisions. Such is life. 

I am reminded however, to trust the universe and to have a little faith that everything eventually falls into place just as it should. Just as it always does. Just as it has for the past twenty-three years of my life. All I have to do is think back to March of last year for proof of this. We cannot control the course of our lives or the events that occur. We can put in a solid effort and hope for the best, but the rest we just have to leave in the hands of the universe. Trust the universe, have a little faith, and take comfort in knowing it all works out.

xo. G 

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